I had an interview this morning. As ever, I don’t really know for sure how it went, but I do think I’m in with a decent chance with this one. I was going to say I have a good feeling about this one, but that wouldn’t be true. Honestly, I am filled with dread.
Which I realise is silly. Sure, this job isn’t exactly what I pictured myself doing (not that I have ever really had a firm idea of what I wanted to do), and there are aspects of it that aren’t quite what I would want, but honestly no job is going to be perfect. Whatever I end up doing, there are going to be some crappy aspects to it. And this would be a decent job with the potential to turn into an actual career, or at least put me in a much better position to begin one. Really it’s just anxiety over change in my life.
It’s odd, really. I’m not at all happy with my current state of existence. But the idea of changing it is still terrifying.
That said, there are other jobs I’ve applied for recently that I think I would rather do. There’ll be a few weeks before I start this one even if I do get it, so who knows; maybe I’ll end up in one of them instead.
Ugh, I hate when people ask me how I feel about an interview, because how I feel rarely has any bearing on how it actually went. I’ve read that sometimes, if you botch it, they’ll be super nice to you because they feel bad for you… and other times, if they’re really mean, it’s because they like you and want to make sure you can handle it. So a bad feeling can be good and a good feeling can be bad so I just give up!
:) But good luck (whatever outcome the good one might be)
Yeah, people always ask how interviews went, and I never know the answer.
This one clearly didn’t go all that well, though, as I didn’t get the job.